Saw a bunch of friends, hung out with relatives, brought Kwan around, attended a wedding.. Nothing over the top, but you just never get bored there. They are still good times, except for a few moments when I can't jump over barriers that not many can, or should be willing to jump over. Everyone should have basic standards right? I feel so alive walking in humid, warm weather! I don't like how the people there think. They can't be too happy and free thinking and acting the way they are. So rigid. They think 1st world values are crazy, 1st worlds think that they are ignorant, that kind of thing.
Taiwan was fun times as well. Saw a few good friends, bought things I liked, visited the admirable Guo Fu Sun yat-sen etc., enjoyed hotspring soaking, good food, good service, cheap entertainment. Taipei doesn't look as advanced as I thought, but it is the fun and people there that matters. People there are more traditional chinesey than mainlander chinese.
Every time I travel to Asia, my eyes are opened. More things happening in every level, more examples, more merchandise, more time, more place, more activities, more food, more friends' stories. I don't know if it is a good thing, but for someone who has been in isolated for 2 - 4 years now, being involved and having an active mind is indeed a good feeling.
After Ottawa, I can explore all I want.
I want to have enough people and things around me, enough to cast away my fear of being alone, of relying on a few people who care, to care. I don't know if I can, but I know I can't have the ability to being in my situation right now. I am slowly fading away... started at the age of 21.
What I want doesn't have to be realistic. I want to work in my family business. The idea of having the luxury to work for yourself, or your parents, your family, or even your in-laws appeals to me. improve the business of your own, improve people you like's lives.
I want to be able to look at someone, the way the bride looks at the groom one day, and it doesn't when the day is.
I want to have properties to play with, esp. if I can't own a business.
I want to have lived a full, meaningful, exciting life, at different stages, at different ages. Age doesn't define when you change fields, when you study another post-grad degree, which stage you should enter.... well, but I do get influenced by the society.
I guess the timing is right. My term for this particular position ends end of March. I have more to offer this time around compared to 20 months ago. Got a couple of opportunities for interviews across Canada, in HK, London. None that is right yet but I just started 3 days ago. What if I get an offer in HK? Do I give up on my western living days? What if I get a good offer in any of these places? Do I give up on my pursue to be an inspector in toronto/vancouver? I am already in the inspectorate. In both public and private sectors, I can go into clinical, regulatory affairs, inspections... I even applied to a paralegal job (do IP / RA work) at Baker & Mackenzie (but I have been asking for a ridiculous amount of money so that I don't need to decide now). People with earnings of $15k/mth, with no family support, has to change $8k bags every season. For bags with lame names such as MandarinA duck? I can save so much bag money for playing if I work there! Reminds me of the spinning arrow in Pochahontas.
Going to Toronto for an inspection course Jan28-Feb1~~ The gov't is so good, I'll pay my taxes on time.
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