With all the demonstrations in europe, it can't help but criticize that they lack some sense of social responsibility.  In big countries like America and China, the government promote nationalism very well for generations.  They work harder - for the good of themselves and also their country.  You maintain peace for your fellow men, you want the country to do well.  It is also their civic duty / personal responsibility / social responsibility.  Promotion and financial incentives are also common practises in the workplace to keep people working.  You have to work for comforts and luxuries in life.  Canada needs more nationalism too... "yeah right". 

Although many cynics say US's rebound is not optimistic, and China's system will not hold much more growth.  Despite their problems, I am optimistic with these two countries will not lose their place in our lifetime given how adaptive, hardworking, and nationalistic their people are. Yes they can.

This will be the 5th winter in Ottawa, but I have never spent my birthday there.  This year is not any different! hehe.

Using all my 16 days of vacay plus 1 day personal leave for Dec24-Jan23 --->  A good break from the harsh January Winter to Vancouver, and then Hong Kong (and some asian country).  If I can take Dec, Jan, and Feb off every year, I suppose I can stay in Canada for good.  Only the government will let me do that unless I work for myself...  Yeah, that's what I have been doing besides hanging out with friends - research how I can say good-bye to a 9-5 job (or 8 to 8 for private companies)... I even bought the book "4 hour work week", finding my ideal job, ppl send out hundreds of versions of cover letters and applications... gawd...  Everytime I go online, I go on some real estate website, and look at cars, schools, crime rates, useless stuff and facebook until I have to sleep. -__-"  No Self-control AT ALL.  Yeah, need to get a car and stocks.  Ugh..

Not being in Vancouver would be escaping Ottawa's cold and some Eastern Canada social norms I don't like, but back to family complications and influences that are not good for me and western canada social norms I dont' like.   

This vacation excites me until I have to think of which relative to live with, what to tell people about my situation and what is the right way to maximize my time there, how long I should spend time with my dad and Mel..  Sometimes I sound very cheery.  People think that I am a very cheerful, positive person who makes them laugh.  The truth is, my default mood is either average or down.  How do people get so happy and excited?  It has been as such for as long as I can remember...  Well, unless I am talking about escaping.  hahaha.. 

"I haven't learned a lot more about investing or making money since I was 25 years old. But I've learned a lot about human behavior. Let's play a game. If you had to pick 1 classmate, and you would earn 10% of what they will earn for the rest of their life, what would go through your mind? Their IQ? Their grades? What school they went to? Who's the best on the dance floor?... Or is it who's the most effective human being. Who do people admire and love to work for. Who is able to inspire and willing to give credit to other people for their successes.

If you had to short 1 classmate 10%, who would that be? What traits turn you off?

You'll realize that the qualities in the people you want are behavioral, not born in. You want someone who doesn't keep score, like 'I cleaned your room,... now you clean mine.' You want someone who people want to do things for."
-Warren Buffet

"You have but one real choice in life, curse the darkness or light a candle."

Survival and the pursuit of success are both about the willingness to learn, the willingness to change, combined with the energy you put in. - Marsha

After screening, I took 2 roommates for shorter terms.  I would have taken everyone if I could.. One female admin manager from Quebec, for 2 months, and one male engineer from a town of 1000 near Lille in France, for 3 months.  The guy has a super nice, 10 pointer gf, another guy I met is nice with a spiteful, mean wife.  I thought of some people in my lives.  Why can't they get what they deserved?  Why can't they all have successful relationships with ideal gfs instead of heartbreaks for just wanting to be with and doing things for a person they like?  Why is this happening?  Because polygamy is banned, b/c everyone makes mistakes, b/c not everything make sense, or does it make too much sense?  b/c of different goals and expectations, b/c the attitude towards it is not mutual, b/c of timing, b/c one is not settling, b/c there are too many factors in this world, but people always ask.. because survival of the fittest is a cruel reality, it is not just and not everyday is judgement day, b/c how much you have put in, and how much you deserve, are not always proportional to how you will be treated, what you will get, and how priviledged you will become... Relation is complication.  One can't budge on these things, as it greatly affects his/her life-long happiness.

PS: I can't stand judgemental people who are proud of their blind righteousness, and condemn you because you don't think like them.  I recall there were instances I was one of these people this past year, I hope their confidence have not been lowered because of me, because it was me who was being stupid and harmful.

PS: Ottawans cannot cut Asian hair is an URBAN MYTH.  I <3 my thinned-out long hair!

Peace, 

Surviver... but why the hell do I have to just survive here?  Jeezzz~  I came here to LIVE!!  Escape Plan, Stage II.